The Story of Poetry

So yeah, I'm updating again... not so bad, eh? Less than 2 weeks! Anyways, I was feeling a lil (inserts word) and I kept thinking of my invisible poem. Yeah, even people like me can be emo! And well, just kept thinking about it, of course for a reason, but if you really want to know that reason, well have fun trying to figure it out! Anyways, I'm halfway into exams, so I might as well do an update before i'm poof, gone YET again! And plus, I'm taking a break today then it's all back to studying yet again. Except... I don't know.. it's not soo bad, the idea of it cause I don't really want the year to end. I don't crave on summer that much, and absolutely not grade 12. However, maybe I just want to sort of ditch this place for awhile. I don't know, I feel like I need some fresh new things to come in my life. *thinks about wongfu* Haha. I feel like I'm very bashful. Oh well, I don't mean to offend any of my readers. I guess the year coming to an end just makes me really sad. I'm going to miss a lot of you guys, hopefully even if you're in uni and all that you'll all come here once in awhile to check out new stories AND poems! ;] Anyways, I was debating whether I should respond to the comments you guys all made or not. And I haven't decided. Well, I'll do it generally: thanks for all the compliments, and I'm glad you all enjoyed the poems as much as I enjoyed them. And thanks for the warm support and "feel better comments" <3. Anyways, I've got another two set of poems below, so enjoy and please leave a warm msg. LOL

~mushroom-chan;; cause.i'm.just.invisible;;

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So this poem was written very close to the due date of the portfolio. As a "writer", it's not easy coming up with poems that fast, so rhyme was a little hard on these one, it was more just of trying to flow and incorporate all my feelings towards the theme of "love" as that is what my "create my own" poems were based on. The poem has to do with love because of course, in every poem, whether it was a ballad, an elegy, it explained or related to something about love. So anyways, have you guys heard "the story" yet:

Our Story

The day you took my hand
The day you said you loved me
You promised you won’t be gone
That you’ll always be with me

But now, where did you go?
Where did you leave to?
Why aren’t you here?
Why aren’t you with me?

I still remember those dark warm nights
When the moon was still half as bright
You would take me by the hand
And hold me tightly, and never letting go

We would walk under the stars
On this never-ending path
And even if it was snowing,
it felt like the sun was glowing

I still remember those sunny bright mornings,
I would lay half awake on my bed
And without a sound, you would come over
To greet me and Avery, “good morning”

Out of bed I would be,
Just in time to walk in
To another great day and place
With an amazing breakfast

We went through everything together
From elementary school to university
From friendship to relationships
From marriage but not to death

You used to be there to say “good night”
And always there to say “good morning”
We went through the happy times together
And definitely the bad times together

But then came the night
When our finale was written
Only one page left
When our story came to an end

Our story was sweet
But ended in bitter
But as long as it still lives
It will always be our story

Our story ended
And yours did too
And I know mine
Will end soon too

The day you took my hand
You never told me that
This is what it will be like
When you were gone

Alissa Tse*

(yeah, i know some parts were umm quite weird D=)

Another poem I had to write was based on a poem about this guy called Richard Cory... I made it emo. oops D: but yeah, life's not as simple as people make it seems like it does... sometimes, it may be.. but other times we just don't realize the pain people go through... and yet we never sit down to think about how the others feel. We always end up just thinking for ourselves, but haven't ever thought about them. I guess that's what I wanted to incorporate, in the poem we read, Richard Cory was like soo amazing and he seemed like a happy guy and then one night, he put a bullet through his head (the poem states) so my poem just shows.. it's not really what the public all thought. Because, the story of Richard Cory wasn't that simple:

The Story of Richard Cory

Legends had spoke of this great man
Different stories from one to another
It was said that Richard Cory was happy
a man who was kind, noble, brave and wealthy

But not many knew about his deepest secrets
The messages that he vaguely showed
No one knew about the pain he had
The unhappiness that he had gone through

The town saw a great big smile,
On a man dressed in a fashionable style
But what went on behind this man’s face
The town knew nothing of

Lucky or not, I do not know
But the other side of Cory
I dare can say I have seen
And happy it was not

Money meant nothing to him
For he had no one to spend it with
Born as a lonely child and
Having no more family after 25

At the age of five,
His mother had died
Not long after,
His father followed

The lovely age of 25 then came,
Where he met his love of his life
But only to have to lose her and
Say goodbye two years later

His heart was played with
Taken away and torn apart
His feelings were trashed
And treated like dirt

But Richard never cared
And when things seem to settle
It all just went crashing again
And he had to say goodbye

Richard hated the word “goodbye”
Because every time, he said it,
He lost another one he loved
Another one he cared about

Then finally, came the time
That he could take no more
He was going to say “good bye”
For the very last time

He chose that same summer night
Where he lost all his loved ones
He took away his soul so that
He can say his one last “goodbye”

The story started with
calm, beautiful and peaceful
only for an ending of
sorrow, dark, and death

-Alissa Tse

Poor Richard Cory is all I have left to say. Anyways, that's all I have for now. I'll be back again for more later... so stay tuned and keep checking back. And once again ENJOY! And lastly, I want to thank WongFu one more time for making amazing videos that always seem to bring a smile to my face no matter what. <3>

~mushroom-chan;; don't.want.to.say.goodbye;;

Back from a Long Break: Birth Of Poetry

So I know I've been dead for a very LONG time... And I didn't expect to not write in 4 months but once regionals came, everything just started coming and I had no time to write any stories and my brain was soo clogged that no ideas came. But I think I am back for a bit now, I just thought I'll put up an update before I disappear again because of exams. But I'm sure going to try to update as often as I can during the summer, but no promises =\ So quite a bit has happened lately, and I just want to thank all those who shared so much memories with me in grade 11, I still can't believe that it's coming to an end. I keep thinking sometimes that we still have the Ottawa Nationals trip only remembering that it is only the past now. But good times, good times. I thank everyone of you who made my year this year so much more memorable. Thanks for those who kept sticking there with me, tolerating my attitude and stuff. I couldn't have gone through without you guys. I'm so grateful to have met soo many new people and I'm sure going to miss a lot of you guys next year. But hey, we'll KIT.

Anyways, so you probably are wondering what I mean by the "Birthy Of Poetry", so at school, in maybe like near March, we were working on Poetry(?) and I got a little into it. Although it was actaully a required assignment where I had to write a few poems and research a few poems, I still think I put some thought into this writing. I wanted to post it here when I wrote them but because I didn't have the time and my teacher had not marked it yet, I decided not to. Yesterday, I got my poetry portfolio back so I decided to post up the poems I wrote (not sure if i'm going to do it one by one or...) but anyways, i don't really have the portfolio with me anymore, it was like a scrapbook of my life (in a way). I don't have it because my teacher wanted to keep it but fear not, i still have the poems. Haha, so hope you enjoy these poems of mine. Thanks <3>
~mushroom-chan;; just.not.ready;;

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So this is one of the very first poems I wrote for the unit. At the beggining of this unit, my teacher had asked us to write a lyric, in the end, she gave it back to us to be included in our portfolio and marked then. A lyric is a form of poem that expresses intense emotions and feelings of the author. This lyric/poem actaully reflects off myself quite a bit, it means a lot to me, I did generalized some things but it's again quite personal (and possibly not that hard to relate to)

The Power of You
If I had a second opportunity
I might have chosen differently,
to not go so fast
but now, this is only the past.

I was a lost child,
but you made me smile.
You helped me find
everything I left behind.

You took me by the hand
only to make me understand,
that true love doesn't exist
that I took the wrong risk.

And when I tried to let go
you wouldn't go with the flow,
you held on to me tight
like I was your only light.

The words you used on me
became the very key,
that opened my heart again
and caused me so much pain.

I cried so much for you
because yes, it was true,
it was true
that I loved you.

You protected me from my fears
but also gave me tears,
you made me laugh
but also tore me in half.

You had that power
to shine like a beautiful flower,
then you gave me a ride
to meet your dark side.

I don't want to see you again,
I don’t want to go through this pain,
I don’t want this to be true,
I don’t want to love you.

So if I had a second chance
I would have taken a glance,
of your possible dedication
to this imperfection.
Alissa Tse*

Ohkay, so that's one of the first poems I wrote. The second poem I'm going to post up today is quite short and simple in a way. But again, it's not as "happy" as you may think it is. This poem was a very nice experiment perhaps? And I decided to include this poem in the poetry portofolio like last minute but I think my teacher enjoyed it a lot, haha, guess it was more deep and emotional then I thought it would be. So ever thought of what it would be like to be invisible? Here's what it's like:

Invisible
Don’t be so keen
On not being seen
It’s not the same
As fun and games

Walking through malls
Passing through walls
No one knows you
It’s sad but it’s true

No one will share
No one will care
You’re left all alone
In your own little zone

The feeling of invisible
Is actually invincible
No one to help you
No one, not even you

There’s no magical potion
Not even a lotion
So don’t be agreeable
When asked to be invisible
- Alissa Tse

The explanation in my portfolio of the "Invisible" Poem:
"I decided to include this poem that I wrote early in the poetry unit because it reminds me of a significant point of my life and something that is important to me. I’ve always remembered that when we were young, we thought being invisible would be so cool because then no one would be able to see us and we would be able to do so many things we couldn’t do when we were visible. I decided to write this poem because I was reminded of this topic while watching a video/short produced by this group where the coolest super power was to be invisible. Although I see the advantage and ability of being invisible, people would never actually think what invisible “really” meant until they have felt it. Well, I once had felt invisible around people, like I never or didn’t exist. I will have to say it’s not the greatest feeling of all. It’s not the nicest to feel invisible or left out around your friends because when you feel that all the people you always cared about and treasured didn’t feel the same way for you. In my poem, I tried to incorporate the feeling of loneliness with the super power definition of invisible together to point out that invisible is more than doing cool things because sometimes, it’s not really that cool to be invisible."

Alright, that's all I have for today. I'll be back soon with more updates. Stay tuned!

~mushroom-chan;; poetrified.LOL;;